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| Friday, August 13th, 2004 | | 11:07 pm |
wow! Last night was deffinatly one of the wost nights of my life, which really is sayin alot considering all I've been threw. I ended up spendin' half the night sittin outside of a fuckin Royal Farms store 'n' the rest of the night sleepin' on some ol' ass wrinkly ladys porch! IT FUCKIN' SUCKED MAJOR DICK! I went with Alex to meet up wit some gurl he been talkin' to online. We ended up chillin' thier all damn night and it was beat as hell. Ant nothin' to do down that bitch. Eventualy the gurls Old ass grandma kicked us out n made her go to bed so me an' Alex tryed gettin home....key word TRYED! The fuckin cab took 3 mother fuckin hours to get thier...then the fuckin' nigga trys tellin' us he ant takein' us without money upfront! Well we ant have no fuckin money so I slamed the fuckin door n told the ninja to go fuck himself, walked over to the house we was at pissed on the front door 'n' walked down the street to the Royal Farms. Me and alex sped all night at that fuckin store tryin to find a ride home with no fuckin' luck. So eventualy it started to rain so we found a dry porch to sleep on n passed out n found a way home in the morning...I really dont wanna get into all of it but trust me the night sucked! | | Monday, August 9th, 2004 | | 9:37 pm |
Lost and Alone....
Yeah so whats new? Not Shit! I feel so lost anymore. I feel like I'm bein pulled into 3 or 4 different directions at once in ever aspect of life. Their are so many fuckin choices in everyday life and I find I cant even make the simplest ones without fuckin' something up. Should I go back to skool? Should I take this job? Should I stay in MD or should I move to FL. I know whatever I decide to do this is goin' to change my life dramatically. All options post their own pros 'n' cons and I feel so alone in making the decisions. I know if I go to skool it'll be best in the long run, but I know also I will be miserable while I'm their. I know if I take this job I wont go back to skool, but Ill be miserable lifein the same poor ass life style. I know if I go to FL I can make a new atempt at life. But if I leave MD I'll miss everyone, some alot more than others, but most everyone will be missed...most everyone. SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WHAT THE FUCK TO DO!!!!!! I feel so fuckin alone anymore. I know yall are thier nobody take that personal. Y'al are still my friends, my homies, an' my loved ones and I don't question that any y'all are their when I need you, but I feel so fuckin alone anymore. I really dont know how to describe it, like I'm not sayin' I feel alone because I don't have anyone or because I'm not in a "relationship" I just feel so lost and I feel as nobody can reach me wear I'm out right now...Perfect song "TWIZTID_WRONG WITH ME" check out the lyrics to understand who I am inside...Well enough pointless ramblin from me for today. Pz out peoples, Much Love Current Mood:  depressedCurrent Music: Twiztid-wrong with me | | Thursday, July 29th, 2004 | | 10:55 pm |
Humm...so whats new? Me 'n' Nikki arnt togther anymore :'(. We still talk and were both still really close, it was just to difficult to see each other. With us livein' so far apart n her always workin' n shit. To be honest I'm NOT lookin' for anyone else. I found what I want, now its just a matter of gettin' what it is I want....'n' I WILL do this! Nothings really changed tho with our relations tho. I still love her more than ever! I miss her so fuckin' much. I just wanna look into her eyes n tell her how much I love her and how much she means to me but I haven't seen her in so fucking long. It'z crazy how much I miss her, its almost even playin mind games with me, I'll be out with my homies just hangin' around 'n' chillin and someone will walk past 'n' I'll have to take a second look just to make sure she didn't just walk past me. Tho nothin has really chaged with the whole relationship it still kinnda hurts to know shes no longer mine, and she says she feels the same way but dosnt relize I am still hers. she still hold me love, and emotions. Anyway onto another topic I'm goin back to school next. I figure it's 'bout time I start doin' somethin' with my life 'n' make sure I don't end up like those I dispise. In all honesty I'm usein Nikki as my motovation for this, if I can work shit out 'n' get shit straight I KNOW w'ell be with each other agian. Well thats all I have for today kiddies so this Killaz out. Pz out. MMFTSKCL! In short me and Nikki are no longer datein, I miss Nikki, I love Nikki, and I'm goin back to skool....that bout it. | | Sunday, July 18th, 2004 | | 2:58 pm |
So yeah I got to see Nikki yesterday, it was nice. I didn't realize how much she meant to me un'till I wasn't abel to see her for a week and a half. I missed her so much over what normally seems to be such as short period of time. Wow, I just realized somethin' I haven't let myself fall this much for anybody in a long long time, I've always tryed to keep up somewhat of a wall to protect myself, but I just couldn't help wanting her to be a big part of my life and me. Anywho as I was sayin' I got to see Nikki yesterday, she was sick so I just held and kissed her all night, tryin' to comfort her the best I could. I felt so bad, now I know how she must have felt when I first got out of shepp. and was goin' threw withdraw from the medications they put me on. It sucks seeing someone you care about in pain and not bein' abel to help them. I felt so helpless. We'll I'm out for now I have a slight headache and ant feelin' so well myself. I hope I didn't catch something from Nikki. I just don't want her to feel guilty if so, she was so worried she would last night but I just wanted to hold and kiss her so bad I couldn't wait any longer. And in all honesty it would have been well worth it just to feel her lips on mine and have her arms draped around my neck again. That to me means the world, more than anything sexually ever could, just holdin' each other and what not. | | Wednesday, July 14th, 2004 | | 6:28 pm |
Humm so whats new? not to much really, me n Nikki have been datein' a month now as of yesterday. Its been great I couldn't be happier with her. I feel so happy and content every time I hold her and cherish every kiss I get. Shes been in O.C. since last Saturday n wont be back 'till this Saturday. I miss her so much and it hasn't even been a week yet. I can't wait 'till she gets home, if nothin' else this week will just make it that much better when I do get to see her again. Other than that I just been into the same old shit, just chillin' wit' Geanie 'n' Mikey and some other heads. I'm still lookin' for a job. I went out with Alex tuesday to look for one 'n' went back to his crib to chill afterwards. Dave, Mike, 'n' some other ninja ended up stopin' by with some drink and Alex got into a fight wit' his dad so I went out with Dave 'n' them for a lil. I got fuckin trashed I had some of Mikes vodka, most of the other ninjas(I forgot his name) and couple 40's. Then I decided I was gonna make an effort at tryin to show lil JD up on his skatebored when I couldnt even walk straight n busted my ass. My blood was so thin from the drink I ended up bleedin like a muda facko all over from this lil cut on my hand. All in all it was pretty fresh night but for the fact I had to walk home in the fuckin rain from eastpoint but I was to drunk to even care. Um...I got a new jersey, I traded my 3X blue hatchetman hockey for a 1X wraith hockey jersey which is fresh cuz the blue one was too big and red more my color anyways lol. But I'm probably gonna trade the Wraith for the red twiztid 04 hockey this friday tho. Um...Im out I have nothin more to say peace out killaz MMFTSKCL! Nikki is the most awesome ever!<3 6/13-7/13 | | Wednesday, July 7th, 2004 | | 2:20 pm |
JHAKJHAKJHAH!
GOD DAMN IT!!!!!!! I just wrote this whole fuckin' entry 'n' erased the nigga so now i gots to re type the whole fuckin' thing!!!!!grrrr!!!! OK as I said this is the entry i was tryin' to post up when I ended up writin' the that bull shit 'bout my stay at Shep. Ok so not much new is really goin' down lately. Im still spendin' as much time as I possabel can with Nikki. I love bein' with her I cant but to feel so contect and just satisfied while I hold her. I fall more and more ever day, I adore every second I get to be with her. UM other than that I just been chillin' wit Geanie, Mike, Dave Parez, and Lindsay alot lately. We been to gunpowder a couple times, I love goin' their, 'specialy when its just me n my people, its so secluded and away from everything its just like our own lil world out their. the first time we went me, Nikki, and her friend Jaquie got lost in the woods on the way back. We ended up followin' the water 'till we got to the road the just walked 40 back to the cars. Then we went agian the day before yesterday but ended up gettin chased out by some wack asa storm. So me n Nikki came back here to clean up n take showers then went back over to Ryans to chill. We both ended up stayin the night their, and I got to hold Nikki all night once again. Unfortunately I ended up gettin grounded for stayin' out that day, which brings me to wear I am now, but it was well worth it for me just to be with her. | | 12:32 pm |
To me, it's kinda funny, this Prozac. I don't know where the fuck I'm goin' or where the fuck I'm at
Humm...so whats new? Well I found myself in shep. Pratt last week. Me and my mom got into yet another fight over some stupid shit, and the psycho bitch called the cops on me yet again. Only this time the cops were fuckin' assholes. They basicly gave me the choice of either goin' and puttin' myself up for an evaluation or goin' out in handcuffs for one. They didn't even care to find the reasons behind the dispute, they followed a vary popular ideal which pisses me off more than anything "I'm the kid and moms the adult thus shes always right". Well fuck that! They knew nothin' and made no attempt to find out the real situation. Well of course I went voluntarily 'cuz them fuckin' 'cuffs HURT! Well them fucks ended up keepin' me in their from Wensday 'till the next Monday. That shit was so fuckin' stale, I couldn't smoke, see any of my homies, have any of my music, or wear my fuckin' hatchetgear, how beat is that shit? In the 5 days I spent their the only problem they recognized was the lack of respect I hold for my parents and most authority in general. Yet they all agree with my ideals. How exactly am I supposed to respect my parents as parental figures when I cant respect them as people first. I'm sorry I just don't agree with MANY of the life choices they have made and feel they don't have the right to hold a valid opinion on my life. Everything I've ever done in my life has been because I wanted to, or because my homies convinced me that it is whats best. All my parents have ever done for me is to show by example what not to do/ become. And with the whole authority in general thing how am I supposed to recognize and respect any form of authority if Id grown up my entire life without any? Shit I was forced to grow up independent from a vary young age and Ive adapted to that lifestyle. Thus I think Ive earned the right to have some say in what happens in MY life. Well as I was sayin' all that come out of that hellish 5 days was the social worker confronted my mom on her "problems" and we came to the agreement I will start to recognize my mother as an authority figure if she makes an attempte at her "problems". However as I returned home Ive seen no effort at all in my mother attemptin' to confront her problems so in all honesty I have made no effort in recognizing her as an authority in my life. Originally the social worker wanted me to go for an emancipation and become declared independent from my mother, she said she would testify as a credible witness, but then realized by the time it would go threw I would have turned 18 anyways and I don't wanna spend the next 6 months in a "boys home" so "we" figured I should just hold out till I turn 18. But shh! momma dukes dun know bout all that yet. Well thats enough bitchin' for today so I'm out peace out y'all I shall update shortly on what this entry was supposed to be about before it turned into just me bitchin' bout shepp. and my mom, just the regular of whats been gin down with me. | | Saturday, June 19th, 2004 | | 9:02 pm |
yeah i know thier are mad fuckin spellin erors in that bitch but i honestly was rushin threw it mad fast n also yall know im just that damn lazy! lol | | 8:35 pm |
Humm....what to say? Well basicly alot of shit has gone down since my last update seein as I basicly never write anything in this anymore. I really need to get on the beat with this shit n start doin somethin with this bitch once in awhile. So anyways what to tell about? Um...Well I have someone new in my life I've been tryin to see as much as posable since everytime I'm around her I become that much happyer. I even got luckly enough to have her say yes when I finaly worked up the balls to ask her to be with me last weekend. I first meet her last year with florenzo at the aveanue, but never really talked to her until I seen her on "thdilly.com" a couple weeks ago. I really started to crush on her at that point, I just couldnt help but admire and respect her after we started talkin and I got to know her. So I asked her to meet me at Alexs party last friday. The party was fuckin crazy, and mad props to Alex for it. I havent been that trashed in a long ass fuckin time and it was nice to escape life for a night. So anywho as I was sayin I had Nikki meet me at this party and got to see her for a couple min then. Unfortunatly she couldnt stay long tho and I was already trashed by the time she had gotten thier so I decided I wanted to chill with her agian Saterday. I ended up chillin with her all saterday night n sunday. It was really nice I just held her all night after I got over my inital shyness and went for that first kiss. I felt really content the whole time while holdin her and fell alil more after each and ever kiss, which was ALOT! Well eventualy one thing lead to another and I finaly asked her out round mid sunday and since then, after gettin off punishment for not comein home saterday, have spent most all my free time talkin to and just bein with Nikki. On another topic Dave has returned home from the military so I've also been hangin out with him a good bit. Its chill hangin with him agian hes always been a close homie. Well other than that ant nothin much new besides the same old bullshit from everyday life so Im out for now. peace out killas MMFTSKCL. <3Nikki all mine ;oP | | Monday, May 17th, 2004 | | 12:39 am |
I've been puttin' a lot of thinkin' into this whole depression thing I've been goin' thru lately 'n' believe I have found the reason behind my mood. I think I've become bored with life. Nothin' can seem to keep my interest for more than a couple minuets recently. It seems as tho I've done all that I can do. I've done it all over n over again and played it all out. My life has become the perpetual cycle of same shit different day kindda deal. Im reminded of some weak ass movie about groundhog day ware the guy keeps reliving the same day over 'n' over again. Nothin new really happens on a day to day basis. Their are always slight differences but basicly its the same situation everyday. I need some excitement in life. However thier has been at least one change in my life that I've been really enjoyin' the past couple of days as of last Friday night, or rather early Saturday morning. Only I don't Know what the outcome of this new situation will become. I'm fearful to fuck up what I already have yet at the same time wish for more. They say that change can be scary but is for the better. Yet they also say that greed can destroy 'n' I'm fearful of wantin' more than I'm granted to. It's funny how all society contradicts itself. I dunno but I guess I'll just have to see how everythin' plays out. One thing I have learend 'n' put to good use from my 17 years of live is that if I just let shit "play itself out" so to speak that it will learned work itself out to a better salution then if I rush a situation to fast n become carless. All the drama of a situation will eventually fade over time n the salution will eventualy become clear and simple right before your eyes. Well thats enough deep thought for tonight. Peace out killas 'n' killettes. Much family love! | | Friday, May 14th, 2004 | | 11:11 pm |
Ok last one for tonight I promise...I don't know why but every time I complete one of the entry's i think of somethin' else I should have added or something i should have worded differently. I guess I'm just so tired of hiding shit n all of the bullshit 'n' games I'd just rather put out everything I can think of into the open. I must be honest with y'all I think my drinkin' n smokin' may have something to do with all this depression. I may have killed of too many natural endorphins thus bringin' out this depression. I dont like to think I've become a junkie or anythin' but lookin' back at the past 2 weeks Ive realized its been a perpetual cycle as life has. The more depressed I've gotten the more weed and alcohol I've drank 'n' smoked. the more I smoke 'n' drink 'n' party, the more depressed I've gotten. I realized the pattern in all this so I figure the only way to drop this depression is to quite or at vary least massively cut back from smokeing weed. I SHOULD NOT be smokein every night. thats not who I want to be. Don't get me wrong I don't plain on goin' straight edge or nothin' fuck all that. But I do at least wish to get down to only drinkin' once every couple of weeks 'n' If I don't stop weed all together I would like to dramatically cut down on that also. Well thats all I can think to add now....hopefuly thats all for tonight. Peace out y'all Oh and I just caught this. When you read the next part I wasn't talkin' 'bout admittin' myself to a rehab clinic but more of a psychological kind of place. Now before shit gets outta hand with gosip I'm not trying to say I'm mentally disturbed or nothin' like that. Just that I need this as an escape so I can feel more like...well...me again. | | 10:58 pm |
I been thinkin' alot lately I dunno yet but i might go admit myself for a couple days just so I can have that escape Ive been so desperately wantin, no actually needing. I didn't wanna put it in the other journals cuz I wasnt sure yet...shit I'm still not to sure its what I want to do. But i figure I might as well be blunt n truthful about this. Ill keep yall updated I guess I might as well sleep on it for tonight if nothin else......Peace out homies. Much Mother Fuckin Twiztid Serial Killa Clown Love!!!! | | 6:33 pm |
While rereadin that last entry I realized it seems as tho I am feelin so lost because of mine n Rachels break-up. However I have been feelin' this way before me n Rachel ever even started to have problems. Which we never truly did have any. Rather I think that my depression 'n' lack of effort caused the break up so the reason for my depression is still yet unknown. | | 6:02 pm |
Humm...well it ant really been that long since i hit this bitch up to be honest but alot of shit has gone down n what little time has gone by. Me n Rachel decided to call it off cuz I never got to see her nomore. Were still relatively chill homies tho considerin'. Um I honestly couldn't tell yall why but somethin' has been keepin me kinnda low latley. I dont know why but for the past couple weeks I been real depressed n shit. I have no motivation to do anything and havent even really chilled wit my homies that much n for thos of you that know me, know that means somethins up. My homies are everything to me thier all I have to get me thru this fucked up existence. I dunno I've somehow found myself back in the perpetual downward spiral I've forced myself to climb out of so many times before. It just seems like everything I do has become pointless. its all a perpetual cycle of never endin falls n climbs. And to be blunt Im not that type of person. I see no point in pullin myself up if I know Im just goin to fall on my ass agian. I see no point in attempting if im already assured failure. I feel as tho my existence means nothin' in the wake of all things. I know its kinnda wack but its still been lingerin over me for awhile now Honestly I feel like i just need a vaction...well not so much a vacation as I would say an escape. Im not lookin to go for a week in Ocean City or nothin like that Shit id much rather it be a deserted island or somethin as long as i could hook some a/c up to that bitch. I dont really know what I want to be honest just as long as it proves as an escape. From what? Im not sure, everything maybe. Maybe Ill just make another attempt at goin into seclusion for a short time. Just to get some alone time. A chance to think about shit, yet I have no clue what it is I need to think about. Ill find out sooner or later n hopefully I can pull myself outta this. Honeslty I dont even know what I'm gettin at here this has just been yet another chance for me to vent n give an explanation to anything that may be explained by all thus. Well I'm done bitchin for now, not to worrie tho Ill be back eventually lol peace out. | | Thursday, April 29th, 2004 | | 11:27 am |
L-O-T-U-S!!!!!!!!!
Humm I ant really got time for this to much lately, I just been chillin with close homies so much I ant been around, but I figured since I was already here waitin on my ride Id update this bitch. Well as I already said Im just postin here waitin on someone to come pick my ass up so I can get to the bank n pull out some money for the Lotus concert tomorrow night. Luckly I found a site online thru my boy Matt, good lookin out homie, n was abel to order the 4 lotus tickets I need the day before yesterday. Well see as I wasnt really exspecting on bein abel to get ahgold of thies tickets I hadnt done fuck all in order to get ready for the show. So me, Ryan, Vinnie, Rachel, Bean, and Mike have been runnin around like carzy tryin to get everything perfect for tomorrow. We died hair, mummified mine, braided Laurns, pick out cloths n facepaint, set up rides n plains for befor n after the show, anything and everything we could think of. I been strssed out n frantic for the past week or so n the whole lotus ordel ant helpin matter none but itll be well worth it tomorrow night. Um...I really ant got nothin else to say so Im out this bitch for now! catch yall killas at the show. MMFTSKCL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! | | Wednesday, April 7th, 2004 | | 11:55 pm |
OH YEAH HAPPY BITHDAY DEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!1 | | 11:09 pm |
Rachel....
Humm I really dont know how to start this muda facko out so Imma just wing dis shit yall. This is diffantly gonna be one of the last bitches I put up here for a hott min cuz I got alot of shit goin on now n dun have as much time for this bullshit no more. Well I guess Ill just throw it all out in the open from the start, I go out with Rachel now...n yeah Im happy bout it. Well heres how shit went down. Last wensday I went up to Hines crib to chill wit him n Vinnie. Well when I got thier Ryans gurl Laurn n her friend Rachel came n picked us up to go up to thier area('nappolis) to chill for the day. Once we got down thier we were all (me Ryan Vinnie Rachel n Laurn) just chillin round playin some pool n hangin out. Well while I was thier me n rachel started gettin along pretty good cuz we seem to have alot in common n have a vary simalar personality. After about an hour or so I diped wit Rachel to go pick up her homie, brittany. We picked up this gurl n went back to rachel crib to chill and hung out havein a chill time n some fun. Well this is ware shit starts to get complicated yall so keep your burnt ass minds up wit me if ya can...As i said we was all just playin round hangin out n havein some fun. Well me, bein the person I am, was jokein round pickin on Rachel. Well then she gets up n starts chasin me threwout the house tryin to mess me up just playin round, So I diped into a guest room to run. She then closes the door behind me to trap my ass in this room so she could get me. Next thing I know she takeled me ass onto the bed n pined my ass down, so Im just chillin thier pin'd to da bed when I looked up n just seen her eyes starin back at mine. Well needless to say I feel into the heat of the time n went wit that shit. After that I just started to really feel for this gurl. I mean this was some seriously movie style shit. Well anywhos I once we got back to Hines crib dat night I had to find out what was up wit this whole situation. Everybody was straight tellin me I had no fuckin chance wit gettin with this gurl n to be perfectly honest I didnt dout them. Well basicaly all this shit was just floatin round my head till friday when as chance would have it Rachel just so happened to stop back up Ryans wit Laurn when I was up thier chillin wit my homies. So he started chillin n I decided I would go chill wit her up in 'nappolis when she diped for a lil while. Well that little while ened up turnin into all day long till bout 1130 that night. We just drove around n talked n pretty much chilled out around her area then tryed gettin to White Marsh n ened up gettin lost which turned into a whole dramatic funny ass story but i reall dun feel like gettin into it. Anywho we eventualy gave up on whitemarsh n just went n chillin outside of Ryans house for bout 2 hours waitin for his ass to get home. We just layed on each other talkin bout shit n hangin out. Well after this I was determined that regardless of what people were tellin me I had to give it a shot n see if she was tryin to get with me as much as I was. Well as it turns out...she was. I asked her our shortly before she left that night n she answered quickly "yes" :D. Oknow that yall know whats bein goin down latley I fill yall in on the drama and onto the difficault part of all this. Shortly before all this went down I was talkin to a gurl courtney from up in Arundel Mills. Well I didnt mean for it so seem like I was tryin to lead her on or for me to come off as a shallow dickhole but after I meet Rachel I just couldnt help that shit. I just feel for her like that. And Im really n turly sorry if I hurt anybody or pissed anyone off but I did what I had to and Im not sorry for that part. Well thats the basics of it all n Im mad bored n tired so Imma let yall go wit that. I dun really know what I was exspectin outta that journal but for real it felt good just to vent all dat shit out. And yeah I know some parts of that might come off as pussy like or gay soundin but ya know what...I dun give fuck all!lol. Well Im out for now peace out my homies. much love to yall killas! Current Mood:  happyCurrent Music: Twiztid-Gravy boat | | Monday, March 29th, 2004 | | 3:29 am |
I dun even know what im gonna write about yet imma just let it flow niggaz
I think I may be an insomniac or however the fuck itz spelled im enterly to tired n beat to give a fuck yet as has happpened every night for the past couple months I cant seem to get to sleep. Its now 2:39am n thier ant fuck all to do, ant shit on T.V. n none of my homies are online or for that matter even awake so I had nothin better to do then update this bitch. Um thier really ant much inrestin to say but its killin some time for me so If i was you unless your facein the same problem as me n have nothin better to do then read this I wouldnt even bother. I seen Dave today for the first time n whats been many months for me, for those of you that dont know thats my father...or atleast thats what they tell me. I havent seen or even talked to him n god knows how long n he exspresed no intrest at all what so ever to even talk to me yesterday when he called n found out Id had come home after 4 months of bein gone n live with my true family a.k.a my fuckin homies, I love yall carzy fucks. I dout he even cared that I was gone. He wasnt worried bout me n I know it he could give a shit less, n whats wrose...I could give even less that he didnt care. Yet for some odd reason when he called today because he was lookin for my sister from the hospital I jumped like one of his fuckin slaves to spend my last fuckin dime to comfort his ass buyin him books magizines muchies n soada. Thats not even what pisses me off tho, nor is the fact that I now have no money for ciggs tommorrow n just buted out my wish, which I actualy did for some reason this time makin it a C. What pisses me off is that I did it. fuck ware was he when I needed a place to live, when I needed food, when I needed a fuckin father! n the only thing that pisses me off worse is I know he know I would do it. He played me n he knew he was doin it and that it would work. I fuckin hate it! And as I seen him layin thier helpless n uterly pathedick i relized something. he actualy did do something for me in my life. He mad me into who I am. He tought me by example what not to become in life. Its because of the mental n psychical abuse I seen him put my mother threw I will never lay my hands on a gurl or cheat. Its because of the shit he did to me n my sister I will never hitt my children. Its because of him I dont like hard drugz. Its because of him Ill NEVER BE HIM! This is why I am goin back to school! this is way I am goin to make somethin of my life! Well as I already said I dout anyone will ever read this other than me but I just needed to vent a little so Im out for now. Peace homies. N to all my TURE homies out thier that have my back when it comes down to it thanks. realy n truly thank yall I love yall! Current Mood:  blahCurrent Music: Dark Lotus | | Tuesday, March 16th, 2004 | | 1:03 pm |
So fuckin burnt.
Once agian i find myself back into this pointless bullshit of an online life simply because Im incredably bored n just to damn burnt to move. UM...well this weekend...well i guess technicaly it was the weekend but rather the past couple of days have been mad mad fresh. I gotta give my props to alexs ass for comein thru with the hook ups like crazyness. Um friday I didnt do shit all day or night just hung out no mall of nothin n it suck BIG! so i decided to make up for it the rest of the weekend. Saterday I carried my bitch ass down to dundalk n stay with my mom n hand out with my homies. As I was sayin saterday I just meet up with vinnie n rolled up to eastpoint to meet up with some heads....i think I already wrote n entry bout this.....so anywho it turns out Alex came to pick me up that night for his party but couldnt get ahold of me. So he decided to make up for it the next two days, which is ware imma start at. Ok sunday I wake up n warsh my nuts n all that good shit n dip up to colgate with vinnie agian. We get thier n chill with the "porch people" for a hott second when out pops alex n lil JD n some other heads. So we then decide to um...go off with them and "chill". So we ended up goin to some wrastlemania party of toms crib n havein mad fun thier till bout 10 when we diped n came back here n i crashed thus concluds night one which dont sound like much but damn i had fun. So then hits Monday, I figured nothin be goin on so Id just chill n recover from sunday since it was a weknight, damn was I wrong. I end up goin back to colgate n runnin into everymother fucker down thier at some point or another in the night. Um we just ended up doin the same shit as the night befor but just chillin round colgate n partyin' then me n mexican Eddy seen some funny ass crack head shit goin down which i just had to throw up here it was so fuckin getto lol. Other than that i just came back here n chilled for the night n woke up round 1ish which is ware im at now. um thats bout all I CAN say but rust me all n all it was a fresh couple of nights Current Mood: BurntCurrent Music: Dope-Bitch | | Sunday, March 14th, 2004 | | 12:51 am |
Hummm.what to say? I figured Id atualy start tryin to do some shit with this page once in awhile so here i am with nothin to really say. Um...today was pretty fresh I visited my momma dukes n then meet up with Vinnie at moms crib. So we ended up stopin by n seein some people i ant seen in a hott min n walked up to eastpoint to meet up with his gurl n julie n some other heads. I had a pretty chill time we just chilled up under some ninjas porch in colgate all night with mad los n lettes. It was fresh thier just hangin out n chillin to psychopathic all night n layin round with Julie ;-p. Um then we just came back here n got some munchies n chilled. well vinnies crashin here tonight n i gots nothin more to say other than julies a sexy beat n mad chill so im out ninjas. peace MMFTSKCL |
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